Two and a half years of planning, a lot of opinions, more decisions than I'd care to make, and a load that seems too much to bear at times. My dreams and my vision are happening right in front of my eyes and yet I've been too weighed down with "well it isn't what I thought," "we should be doing better," "there's too much to do and we aren't prepared" thoughts to let myself rest in the knowledge that God has led us here. He has provided for us. He has orchestrated this beautiful path of meeting incredible people and having amazing experiences.
I have grown weary through the planning stages and that has led to a tough first week. I woke up sick this morning, the day before our first event, and thought, "seriously?! Why now!" but in all honesty, this is a wake up call for me. Pride comes before the fall, and my feeling of it's all on us has led to exhaustion too early on.
Isaiah 40:28-31 says, "Have you not known? Have you not heard? The everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth, neither faints nor is weary, His understanding is unsearchable. He gives power to the weak, and to those who have no might He increases strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall, but those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength, they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint."
Matthew 11:28-30 says, "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Too often, I feel the need to prove myself, to fix things, to be better and better and better, but rarely, do I just sit still and rest.
My prayer this morning, for myself and for you and the trials you face is this:
Oh Father! I am weary and tired. Selfishly, I thought I could do this on my own. I thought my trials were to small to go to You with and I thought I had to be "strong." I had to figure it out alone. Oh Lord, forgive me! Thank you for loving me, for strengthening me, for giving me wings like eagles and providing rest. Thank you for teaching me, leading me, and growing me through the trials. You have an understanding that surpasses all knowledge and you know me. Search my heart today Lord and give me peace and understanding as I walk through the trail of life. In Jesus name, Amen!
As I rest before our event tomorrow and a tough week on the trails coming up, I will pray this prayer above for me and for you. May we all learn to trust in the Lord more and rest in His unending love.
xo,
Sara
Originially posted on April 6, 2018 via Mustangs on a Mission, a cross country horseback ride on which my friend, Olivia, and I rode horses and shared with people the healing love of horses and Jesus Christ.
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